All in Deprogramming

Funny Not Ha-Ha

Healing is not a linear process. It’s a hard thing to wrap my head around, since I experience this world in a primarily linear fashion. But I know the truth of it is that healing—whether it’s physical, emotional, or spiritual—takes a curvy and confusing route.

In this week’s episode, In Praise of the Little Bits, I talk a bit about my own journey with perfectionism, starting in my childhood. I was raised by an authoritarian ex-military father, in an evangelical church, and in public school. Each of these three pillars of my life asked me to be a certain way—a way that I, fundamentally, could not be. As a result, I picked up a lot of programming about how I wasn’t good enough, that I was broken, that I couldn’t be loved.